My Clothes Aren't Nice Enough

I was afraid to hang out with my friends because my clothes aren't nice enough. That was my reason.

My friends would invite me to travel with them, or dine with them, or spend time with them, and I would be afraid to go. I deemed myself not good enough - unworthy. 

I almost stopped myself from doing things with them because I was scared.

On one of our trips, one of these friends confided in me that she was afraid to travel with me and our friends because, she said, 'you have interesting jobs.' Mind you, this woman - my beautiful friend - is an incredibly talented artist who volunteers and spreads joy simply by who she is. 

When she shared this with me, I almost cried. The shock and sadness that overcame me rocked my soul. To think that we may not have shared this time together because of our fears of unworthiness, of not 'being good enough.' 

We are all human. We really do have the same fears. They are just packaged differently.

There were many times, in my younger years, when my fears DID stop me. I was so afraid I was not worthy, and that I would be judged, that I  wouldn't do the thing - it was easier to just stay home.

That's not living.

Living is facing that fear in the doorway and seeing what unfolds once I walk through the door, leaving the fear behind. 

Doing that over and over reduces and even eliminates the fear.

Living. I'm doing it more and more now.

I love it!!

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©Catherine Borowski 2019
www.celebratingwealth.com

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